Neglected
Last post March 31st... yikes! I think it would be fair to say that my blog has been a little neglected lately. I'm sure I could make a million excuses. "I'm too busy," "I am just too tired from all the papers I have been writing for classes," "I don't have anything good to write about." The fact of the matter is, I haven't made it a priority.
I have realized something lately. I don't want to be a teacher. In fact, I'm not even sure why I am majoring in it. Teaching is an extremely awesome profession, but it is not my passion. Writing is my one true passion. I was terrified when this realization hit me. I was terrified for a few reasons. I love Grace University, but they don't have a writing degree. I know that writers don't make a lot of money. I also know that it will be a tough road. I had so many things swirling around in my head. Ideas of what I should do with my life. Then it hit me like a ton of bricks. I HADN'T EVEN PRAYED ABOUT IT!!!
You may ask, "Bekah, how could you be so stupid? Aren't you a Christian?" Yes, I am a Christian. I'm a Christian that, more often than not, lives in the flesh. I had asked so many people's advice and wasn't getting the results I had hoped for. Then, I talked to the Dean of Women at my school. She talked to me about possible routes to take for my life. It was such a blessing to speak with her and to hear her advice. She is a woman of God and I knew going into it that she had probably already been praying about our meeting that day. When we were done, I felt a sense of direction and of determination. I was ready to tackle my future. I knew what God wanted from me!
As the afternoon went on, I started to feel less and less peace about it as I started to think of money situations and the analytical side of my brain went into overdrive. That is when a stellar thought hit me. Hmm, maybe I should read my Bible and pray! Who would have thought of that? Clearly not me. Anyway, I opened up my Bible app to look at the verse of the day. The verse was Revelation 1:8.
I have realized something lately. I don't want to be a teacher. In fact, I'm not even sure why I am majoring in it. Teaching is an extremely awesome profession, but it is not my passion. Writing is my one true passion. I was terrified when this realization hit me. I was terrified for a few reasons. I love Grace University, but they don't have a writing degree. I know that writers don't make a lot of money. I also know that it will be a tough road. I had so many things swirling around in my head. Ideas of what I should do with my life. Then it hit me like a ton of bricks. I HADN'T EVEN PRAYED ABOUT IT!!!
You may ask, "Bekah, how could you be so stupid? Aren't you a Christian?" Yes, I am a Christian. I'm a Christian that, more often than not, lives in the flesh. I had asked so many people's advice and wasn't getting the results I had hoped for. Then, I talked to the Dean of Women at my school. She talked to me about possible routes to take for my life. It was such a blessing to speak with her and to hear her advice. She is a woman of God and I knew going into it that she had probably already been praying about our meeting that day. When we were done, I felt a sense of direction and of determination. I was ready to tackle my future. I knew what God wanted from me!
As the afternoon went on, I started to feel less and less peace about it as I started to think of money situations and the analytical side of my brain went into overdrive. That is when a stellar thought hit me. Hmm, maybe I should read my Bible and pray! Who would have thought of that? Clearly not me. Anyway, I opened up my Bible app to look at the verse of the day. The verse was Revelation 1:8.
"I am the Alpha and the Omega," says the Lord God, "Who is, and who was, and who is to come. The Almighty"
I wish I had opened my Bible a little sooner. It was such a great reminder for me to read that. The God I serve has orchestrated my past, is working in my life now, and will continue to plan my future. I have no need to worry. He has got my life in His hands. Not only my life, but every single life on the planet Earth, past, present, and future! I can't even wrap my mind around that. I think that is the point. Nothing we can ever imagine will ever live up to the standard God has set. I can't think of a more magnificent God to serve than Jesus Christ. The Almighty.
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